Well... That was a weekend.

Interesting fact, parents; kids can just have seizures sometimes. Did you know that? Apparently, idiopathic seizures are a thing. I feel like this should be a warning that they give you when you walk out of the delivery room. "Congratulations! Your baby is healthy! When that kid is older, early preteens to teens, they might just have seizures and we won't know why!" Now, if you've found this blog, then you know that we have seen some stuff go down. We've seen pictures of bits of our kid that no parents should see. We've learned way too much about things like how the heart works. We know words like "tamponade" and "truncus arteriosus." I've seen my kid have CPR done on him before he'd seen his bedroom. I know why kids in a cardiac recovery room have signs around that say "open chest."

So when Teddy had a seizure on Saturday morning at 7:45 a.m. and I saw him on the floor, know what it means when I say that this was the scariest moment we've had raising him. Stuff in the hospital, that's contextually a thing. You know that it's going to go down there. You've got dozens of trained professionals who will help. You're prepared. When something like this happens, you don't know. You're just getting out of your shower and you hear a thump in the living room and have to run to see what's happening. You see your kid laying on the ground, convulsing. You see his lips turn blue for a moment. He doesn't respond and all you can think is "Help me. Please. Help me." The panic that hits you makes things so much harder. Modern cell phones hide the dialer on the phone app so that it's not immediately obvious, because most of the time, you want your contacts. I am going to add "911" as a contact, not because I can't remember the number, but because I need to make it faster to get to that number in an emergency.

Teddy is fine now. He had a seizure. The neurologist at the hospital was relaxed and we're planning to have an EEG the day after his birthday. Depending on what that finds, we'll talk about do we need an MRI and how does that work with his heart valve. In short, we're going back into the context of being ready. 

Parents, you will have these moments. The thunderbolt from the sky that hits your kid and you can't be ready. Don't be too hard on yourself when that happens. And add 911 to your contact list.